Lost...

Am I supposed to feel this way?
Is it permanent? Or just temporary?
It's almost too much.
Nothing is comfortable anymore.
Does she feel it?
I hope not. Im not worth it.
I wasn't even good enough from the start.
Too many mistakes were made.
I love her. I loved her.
But it wasn't meant to be.
I miss it already. Us.
I was told once to never regret what made me happy.
I would never regret what she and I had.
What I fear is that I wasted her time.
That's five months that she can't get back.
What am I supposed to do?
Help me. Please.

The aftermath.

Going back is not an option. Going forward is the only way. You once said that it's my happiness. I hope its my happiness I am saving. If only I could save both. If I hadnt, would mine be there? Its a gamble. I wasnt speaking from anger. This was calm and peaceful. Scared me that it was so. Are you okay? I cant hear you.

Leading up to it.

Time has come. Do you see it? You should. It is happening now. Our lives will never be the same. Can you handle it? So much ahead. Living forever. But ending so quickly. No longer there but always here. I listen. I respond. Gone.