Lost...

Am I supposed to feel this way?
Is it permanent? Or just temporary?
It's almost too much.
Nothing is comfortable anymore.
Does she feel it?
I hope not. Im not worth it.
I wasn't even good enough from the start.
Too many mistakes were made.
I love her. I loved her.
But it wasn't meant to be.
I miss it already. Us.
I was told once to never regret what made me happy.
I would never regret what she and I had.
What I fear is that I wasted her time.
That's five months that she can't get back.
What am I supposed to do?
Help me. Please.